Day 1 - Love Dare

Over the weekend, Sas and I watched the movie Fireproof. It's a Kirk Cameron religious movie, but not over the top. It was basically about a couple whose marriage was going badly and the husband taking part in a "Love Dare" for 40 days to try to bring it back together. My wife and I were both crying a lot by the end of the movie. We could definitely relate. Things have not gotten as bad as in the movie, but you could draw some comparisons.

Sas bought the Love Dare book in which the movie was based. Today is day 1. Today, we need to be patient with each other. To not allow anger and judgment to affect us. To give time and patience to the other.

I have had days where the littlest thing is said or even just a look and I get all upset. I yell at her or the kids and totally overact. That needs to stop. I feel horrible about it afterwards each time. I don't know why I get set off or why I do it. It seems to just happen. I don't want to make excuses, it just needs to stop.

My wife is the most important thing to me in this world along with my children. I do anything to make her happy. I long to see her happy again. I hope this journey through the Love Dare steps will help.

http://www.fireproofmymarriage.com/

So far today, no issues. We woke up at 5am for our morning exercise. We do the Exercise TV on Time Warner Cable. We each got ready for the day afterwards and she went to work. This morning I sent her an email just to say "Hope you are having a good day" and "Love You". We'll see how tonight goes - I will update later.

I've been trying to make it a point to more proactively communicate with Sas. I'm trying to be more open and share what I'm thinking, what I'm feeling. It's not something I'm used to doing. But it is something that she's asked for more of in the past. Moreso, I need to listen to HER and let her speak, not necessarily try to solve all of her problems before she even gets done stating them.